binge

Today I won

Today I lost

I woke up to find out I won more really nice cigars. I'm less excited than I was when I found out. I drove to Maryland and got more carts. Got a great deal, including a free 1g cart of Wedding Cake. But I also turned into the exit of a gas station in a fruitless attempt to get the cheapest gas, and swiped the curb pretty hard and bent up yet another rim. Now I'll need to take my car in to the mechanic and ensure it's safe for a drive across the country again. So I can visit New Orleans. So I can see my friends. So I can celebrate Mardi Gras. So I can see Sophie.

Sophie called last night. Early this morning. She was probably in an Adderall mania, I'm not totally sure. She was vindictive. She will always be mad at me. I don't even know for what anymore. I don't know what will happen. I get so many thoughts in my head that I can't even talk about it because I'm just so confused. I wish it were just a simple thing. 

My eyes are fucked.