words and patterns

Making a text series, texts that I want to send to people irl, but they're either not alive anymore, or I just don't want to actually send the text to them for any number of reasons. Forgot the one I was going to start with, oh well I guess.

I drove so.much I thought I was hallucinating once I laid down and tried to close my eyes There were shapes spinning in 3 dimensions above me and then I would be thrown back onto the road with same emotions of high speed and split second decisions 

The weather is beginning to break. There's a lot I think I want to talk about, but there's a lot I don't want to talk about. I've been traveling to see friends more if you could call it that. I'm going to Peru soon. I'm still depressed. For no reason. Well anyways.

Today I won Today I lost I woke up to find out I won more really nice cigars. I'm less excited than I was when I found out. I drove to Maryland and got more carts. Got a great deal, including a free 1g cart of Wedding Cake. But I also turned into the exit of a gas station in a fruitless attempt to get the cheapest gas, and swiped the curb pretty hard and bent up yet another rim. Now I'll need to take my car in to the mechanic and ensure it's safe for a drive across the country again. So I can visit New Orleans. So I can see my friends. So I can celebrate Mardi Gras. So I can see Sophie. Sophie called last night. Early this morning. She was probably in an Adderall mania, I'm not totally sure. She was vindictive. She will always be mad at me. I don't even know for what anymore. I don't know what will happen. I get so many thoughts in my head that I can't even talk about it because I'm just so confused. I wish it were just a simple thing.  My eyes are fucke...

The real test of the mind is dominion over the body.