words and patterns

You will never find happiness. No matter where you look, no matter how hard you look, no matter how much you spend or how much you prepare, you will never find happiness.  Fortunately, happiness will find you. 

Parents - ungrateful? Am I ungrateful? Is this how my parents see me? Is wanting better ways of living and better communication a bad call? Why don't people like to change for the better? How can you talk to someone who tlwill always think they know better than anyone else? I don't think there is anything I hate more in this world than the sound of my own mother's voice. That's a sad thing to admit and I don't know if I could ever tell that to another person face to face. It makes me feel like a villain in the making. Like a person who's lost their soul. It feels so wrong, and yet all the more appropriate when I look at that reaction as being itself instilled by my mother brought me up, to believe that she could do no wrong and that I should always respect her and her opinion no matter what. To me that doesn't make any sense at all. I have my own son who is an adult now and I would never in a million years treat him the way I have been treated, I'd never

Discipline does not equal punishment

Take note of the amount of time you spend complaining about control and circumstance, and balance that out with time invested into the less appealing aspects of accomplishing a "dream" goal, (i.e. practice, prep, personal care, etc)

 try to sleep it away i try to put it to bed i tried to to give it away but it came back instead i just think maybe they get fat the of the land maybe we can too hands off the holy ghost is trespassing serpents on the surface shed their skin turns out they're worthless no use in being clever if you're not being heard