it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Let's see if I can blog while driving. As I said I'm driving home from work. It is now Saturday I believe. Maybe it's the 13th and I'm smoking a cigar if you could believe it. Alec Bradley magic toast not a bad day at work long I was on drop line 3 with Clint which is a trial in and of itself. He's a good guy who's worked hard but his age shows in his work and in his ability to hold attention. But all in all it wasn't a bad night. I still had it pretty easy. Got to spend a lot of the shift relaxing and even when I was on the line I was falling asleep 

Sophie and I have been communicating more frequently. Though I feel it's not necessarily the type of communication I'm seeking, but she might be testing the waters or probing for security reasons. It's still just nice to be talking to her at all, especially after this last visit and being able to spend time with her without any sort of holding back. Well maybe there was some holding back but without a lot of holding back which there there was previously. 

You know call me a sucker, but I've noticed a lot lately that topics dealing with things that could that I could relate to in some way from a relationship like a thread that like ties me back to something from a relationship. More specifically recent relationships when I see these things brought up television or in the books that I read. I feel really sad. I get down on myself. Pretty pretty harshly I don't even really want to bring up the specific topics because they make me feel bad but having them brought up in media it almost feels like having a throne in my face

I don't know if I mentioned the new episode of pluribus that I watched, but I barely watched it because it didn't grab me like the other episodes did. So I kind of just half-watched it kind of background watched it. If something more involved happens on the next episode, I'll probably have to go back and watch this episode again to understand it. I just noticed that my neighbor put up Christmas ornaments in there tree. Very cute!