words and patterns

I drove so.much I thought I was hallucinating once I laid down and tried to close my eyes There were shapes spinning in 3 dimensions above me and then I would be thrown back onto the road with same emotions of high speed and split second decisions 

The weather is beginning to break. There's a lot I think I want to talk about, but there's a lot I don't want to talk about. I've been traveling to see friends more if you could call it that. I'm going to Peru soon. I'm still depressed. For no reason. Well anyways.

Today I won Today I lost I woke up to find out I won more really nice cigars. I'm less excited than I was when I found out. I drove to Maryland and got more carts. Got a great deal, including a free 1g cart of Wedding Cake. But I also turned into the exit of a gas station in a fruitless attempt to get the cheapest gas, and swiped the curb pretty hard and bent up yet another rim. Now I'll need to take my car in to the mechanic and ensure it's safe for a drive across the country again. So I can visit New Orleans. So I can see my friends. So I can celebrate Mardi Gras. So I can see Sophie. Sophie called last night. Early this morning. She was probably in an Adderall mania, I'm not totally sure. She was vindictive. She will always be mad at me. I don't even know for what anymore. I don't know what will happen. I get so many thoughts in my head that I can't even talk about it because I'm just so confused. I wish it were just a simple thing.  My eyes are fucke...

The real test of the mind is dominion over the body. 

It's been a while since I made a real blog entry. I suppose that's because all I've done is work. I had a couple of days off for Christmas, Christmas Eve, but All in all I've just been working. I know that earlier I had in mind things to talk about to my journal about work, but I don't know if I necessarily remember exactly what I wanted to say or why I wanted to say it. I imagine I wanted to convey some level of frustration with the incompetence, but now that I'm not there, It's a lot easier to view it from a outside perspective. It is New Year's Day now which means not much to me at all. I spent New Year's Eve working, And now my work week begins in earnest tonight. Strangely enough, I am glad to at least get back to my crew as I've grown weary of the others. People cause unnecessary drama and stress. I'm doing well with my financial goals so far, at least from a short glance that my bank account and everything. I do need to remind myself t...

Merry Christmas blog I barely use. I'm mostly just putting up a reminder that I like this painter  Renaissance painter, a lot of Christ or biblical event paintings, or Saints as well. Beautiful stuff, and has doubles of a lot of stuff which I found intriguing, finding lots of odd changes to the second piece and wondering about the reasoning for those changes. Worth a jump down a rabbit hole someday to understand this guy's work better, maybe eventually grab a few prints.