runnin up that hill

So I'm sitting in my car parked outside my house. I'm going to try to use a prompt today to write this entry

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Date and Day: Wednesday, November 12th, 7:30 a.m.

Today's Focus/Feeling: so I guess today I focused on work. I don't know. That's a tough question. My overall feelings today or tonight. I was less frustrated at work in the past couple of nights. I don't know what factors played into that. I still felt as tired but just less irritated feeling less restless I also got to work kind of on my own time today so that probably factored in.

The High Point (Win/Gratitude): What's one good thing that happened or something you're grateful for? I'm really just happy to have gotten through another night and getting closer to the week off so that I can get more rest and get some things done. Chores and sitting down with budgets and plans and everything and giving those their due attention

The Low Point (Challenge/Lesson): What was the hardest part of the day, or a mistake you made? It was just a tough day physically I had to throw a lot of blocks. I took a lot of breaks and down time to rest from that stuff so it made it a lot less difficult. That's for sure. But all in all yeah it was. It was tough physically you know I and management as usual. It's making poor decisions that I don't agree with, but I've really given up on investing myself into caring about that stuff

Next Steps/Actionable: What is one thing you will do tomorrow or a goal you set based on today? As I mentioned before, I was just thankful to get through today so that I can get to my days off where I can focus on planning and budgeting. Better give things their their due attention. I don't think there was any like particular things I took away from today that will have any sort of lasting impression. I'm not saying that's a good thing. I just don't really feel any. Any ripples coming off any stones thrown today? 

It's hard to talk about your day when the only thing you did with it was work. It seems like it really consumes. Such huge chunks of my life and mind. Need to get away from this lifestyle. It's not for me but it's serving me for right now so I can't argue with it. I can't devalue it. It's just draining and soul sucking. But I continue on.