He's Going the Distance

" reluctantly crouched at the starting line..."

                                                               -Cake

Let's talk about impulse control. Of which I have none. That's not true. I just don't exercise it as much as I should. I think too much and I don't write down enough.

I need to be writing things down more. 

I'm not doing anything wrong. I've done things in the past that contribute to my situation today, but I'm not contributing negatively right now. I'm doing the best I can. I work. I do control impulses. Im being patient with myself and with others. I'm doing the best I can. But the best I can can be better. That's the work. I'm feeling guilty for buying $50 worth of cigars. When really I should be feeling guilty about spending $150 on kratom? And I don't even know how long that'll last. I need to use the SR and end this. That's what I need to be talking about because that's probably the biggest hurdle between truly being free financially as well as physically from myself from my past from crutches physical and mental psychological...

I can do this. I just need to take it on and be serious about it and stop making excuses. I make excuses everyday between work. It's the same excuses I used when I was doing "real drugs". And it's not just about the money. The money is a huge Factor but it's not just the money. It's the physical health, It's the mental health,and it's to stop Embracing unhealthy crutches

It's too easy for small changes surrounding that to have huge effects on my day on my week on my life.