Communication Breakdown

Thursday, November 20th 5:55 p.m. 

Getting ready to leave for work, I'm already in the car smoking a cigar, warming up the engine. I don't want to go. I never do.

8:06 pm

First break. Smoking an Alec Bradley Superstition out in the car, listening to Game of Thrones on audiobook. It's been a bit since I was past listening, so I have to use context clues to figure out where I am in the book/story. Pretty sure this is a Jon Connington chapter, which tbh I think is a "flavor" chapter, it really only serves to fill in backstory concerning Young Griff/Faegon, as well as inform the reader that JonCon is totally fucked from Greyscale. 

11:00 pm

On another break in the car smoking a cigar. This one is an HVC seleccion number one. 

I need to do some meditations on communication. What my expectations are of others. How I can be more patient and acceptant of the way others communicate and how that might not work intuitively with the way I understand communication. In general, I just need to do some actual work on understanding communication and not just sitting around thinking about the way it negatively affects me when it doesn't go "my way". 

"A place you can reliably go and find yourself there". I think that's maybe what people get out of using journals or having an art room these spaces that can be modified and designed to reflect a place within ourselves that we need to be safe. We need that person within ourselves to feel safe to be them to be open. So we need a place to let that person thrive. Like a pet like a like a goldfish needs a good aquarium to thrive and grow large. 

I'm going to go back to listening to Game of Thrones for a bit.