powerless

 Could it be... everybody?

I want to respond, I want to pick up the phone 

I want to call you back 

But I'm too far away. I'm powerless.

I'm stuck in hell until it spits me back out.


Why should I answer? What could you do? Your pity is empty, you want something I don't have and you think that I'm hiding it from you.


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